26/Feb/2006
Got what I want?
Is what I want what I really wanted? If I thought getting it was difficult. The moments after having it are torture. Sex and love is it possible to have one without the other. Or does the emotional release of one show the other to be lacking. Aware of the emotional disconnection I needed to get the other. Not healthy. The physical reality sickens me. Do I hate myself? Do I hate my desires? What's next?
Oh yeah, a friend came over for the weekend. I picked her up from the airport and then drove to the mountain, we were going to stay and watch the sunset. However we arrived about an hour too early and visibility was poor. So we went out for hot Indian curry. It's been a while since I've been hurt by a curry, breathed a chilli in the wrong way.
Saturday we drove down to Phillip Island and saw some penguins at the Nobbies. Had lunch in Cowes. Sat on the beach and watched people jump off the pier into the water. Had a BBQ in the evening.
Sunday we watched some DVDs and then went into Southgate for dinner, watched the sunset over the Yarra and the Gas jets outside the Casino.
